"...In the world but not of the world"

I realise i've not posted for an exceedingly amount of time. For that i apologise. I've been spending an inordinate amount of time playing World of Warcraft and seldom find time outside of my addiction to post. But this post isn't about that.

I've met a new friend in church of late. His name is Abraham and he is blind. He is a jovial and fascinating individual. He was not blind all his life but due to a medical condition he became thus. Pik Yee, the pastor's wife introduced him to me. We spoke and he opened up perspectives that i had never considered before and now that they are opened to me, must be considered.

We spoke of many things but foremost of his words were on God and finance. He revealed to me the dishonest scales of the finance system in the world we live in today. Furthermore, he encouraged me to live my life for God. To seek first the kingdom of God and his Righteousness. Indeed, this man lives a life exemplary of that verse.

There was one thing however that he told me that i never did understand until today. He said that God called us to be "in the world but not of the world". I honestly did not grasp the meaning of his words until today where perhaps by God's providence were revealed to me in an epiphany.

I will not reveal the nature of my thoughts but i can tell you this: It is impossible to be of the world and still be a Christian. It is an impossibility. The beliefs that the world and Christ have are as diameterically opposed as matter and antimatter. From now on, I pray that as i live day by day for wisdom to see the evil more clearly, to be with God more closely and to live Him more deeply. There is simply no compromise between the 2. The road is long and hard but I will walk, not alone but with God.

I am not an extreme person. I would not consider myself a fundamentalist. To those who think I am calling for a war on non believers please listen to what i have to say. I am not suddenly calling all my friends who do not share my beliefs my enemy. Such neurosis is unbecoming and fitting only for the most extreme of fundamentalists. I love my neighbour as myself as much as i can and will continue to do as such. To those who wish me harm i pray that God will reveal to me their ways that i might not fall to the wayside with their snares.

Some might call this pride and a holier-than-thou attitude. I will simply say that because i am a Christian therefore i am a sinner. We are all sinners in this world and none moreso than the person who recognises his sin. I am by no means perfect. I have failed God in so many ways i dare not count them. I do not even follow some of the most basic precepts of my church. I listen to any music that catches my fancy, i eat anything that i fancy. Some of the "rules" of the church i do not follow. I am but a sinner. I pray that God can transform me to the person that he wants me to be. I think it will be gradual that we will only let him but i digress. My point is simple. I am a Christian, and a human being. When i stumble remember that i am but an imperfect being, do not judge me with weightier scales because i am a "Christian" but realise i am just like one of you: imperfect in every way.

I have said much but performed little. I hope in the future i will have the wisdom to see for i was blind before. A little light has entered my eyes and i pray that they might be fully open one day. "Hitherto thou have come, but no further"